i know im not the only woman in the world who struggles with weight. but i am the only woman in the world who can motivate myself to lose my weight. ive struggled with weight for over 4 years now. the battle is hard! dating my now husband was not good for my skinny nieeve to weight gain self! now that ive checked off getting married to my love and having my most adorable sweet baby i now want to check off 'lose weight'! ive done countless things to try and she'd pounds. personal trainer.... cleanse..... ordered p90x...... so THIS time im publically throwing myself out there to see if maybe i can get some accountability. im pretty sure my husband is sick of me asking him to keep me accountable then snapping at him when he tells me that one scoop of ice cream would be better for me than two. i play the game of laying awake at night just thinking of what you can do to change and becoming super motivated to get on track then as soon as morning comes to work out....
s-a-nooooooze......
whelp this is me trying to change. i figure maybe if i throw myself out there and let the world know im trying to lose weight it'll keep me more accountable or something......
i mean come on! its a pound a week! that's a healthy goal and i still want to live people. i can't survive on one spinach leaf a day! unlike some of you crazy health nuts. and that's not what i am. im simply a girl who is sick of worring if the way im sitting makes me look huge, or if i look like a total fatty standing next to my husband, wondering if my butt hangs over the side of this chair, if i can still look down and see my feet, or sucking my stomach in and knowing it doesn't do me any good or, seeing myself in a picture and thinking 'i look like that!?' in fact id like to actually BE IN pictures!
my biggest weakness is i haaaate, with a passion, going to the gym. it is like THE most boring thing ever, in my book. don't get me wrong i love the way i feel after being at the gym but seriously..... it's like a large room filled with gray and black colors then a whole mirror wall just to reflect more gray and black colors..... give me a lime green treadmill or a bright yellow elliptical!! also my greatest weekness is i realllllly love good food. i mean like goooood food. i tried that gluten free cookie dough from costco. It tasted like bleach! so these 2 great weaknesses combined = 4 years of up and down struggles with weight! ive told myself before we have any more kids id like to lose 30 lbs. ***not that in 30 weeks we're going to get pregnant again****
this time im taking a little of this and a little of that and coming up with my own plan that works for me that i know i can follow.
so here we go.... im gonna really try this time! there are these 2 guys in my life id really like to keep up with!
wish me 30 wishes of luck!
better get myself to sleep cuz the alarm goes off at 7:30 and i didn't give myself a snooze option!
((oh and ps.... at 15 lbs i get a $250 shopping spree per my motivational mother!))
